i just looked at the band schedule.
and im pretty scared.
no shows until october, but still...
am i going to have time for anything?
school? im probably going to be struggling in my classes if i can't get any work done.
what about tia? will i have time for her? that's what scares me the most :(

meg&dia - fighting for nothing

//edit.
just go...

it's like almost 930. im hungry.
my sister left with my cousins to mt. baldy to go hiking.
i didn't go cause i knew i'd be staying up with tia all night.
of course, doing something weird that we always do every night.
she asked me to wake her up at 1230. im kinda tired.
not tired enough to sleep though.
... or maybe too tired to sleep.
im staying up for her. rawr.
k, moms buying me mcdonalds.

~marvelous michael

this week

is like "you don't get to talk to your girlfriend" week.
i wonder what's going to happen in the two weeks of band camp.
that's like no talking to her at all :(
... what am i gna do.

its been two weeks. i think im going crazy :/

i've been thinking a lot lately...
especially after my dreams last night.

i just realized today is the 24th...
link crew training is the 5th and 6th of august...
i haven't gotten an email about anything...
mrs. wellmeyer's and ms. tan's websites don't say anything...
WTF.
august is going to be hell.
i'm going to sleep now.
well after i watch ni hao kai lan [:
THEN i am going to sleep.
because it's like 6;49am

//edit
wow. i just checked my email right now.
and mrs. wellmeyer emailed me.
how funny i posted this last night, and she emailed me today.

~ McMichael

why do i feel like somethings wrong

2 months

yes. today is two months of tia&i being together! :)
... i'm not going to see her today though. and i'm probably barely going to talk to her cause she has drumline practice later on today. :( it's all good though.
this has been the smoothest two months ever. i've never had it so easy in two months while in a relationship withOUT any kind of bullshit, because that's all what my past relationships have been.
im excited to see whats up for us in the future cause i love this girl to deathzzzzz.
<3 ^__^ :D

---

hi, i miss you.

---

anyways. i haven't slept yet. yes, i haven't slept yet.
i've eaten two breakfasts already and i drank six glasses of water.
or maybe i had three breakfasts? i cooked two omeletes, and then an hour later, i cooked a pizza. LOL. im a fatass :).
shit, i'm not even that tired. i'm probably going to take a nap later while tia's at practice.

i don't know what i'm gonna do now. o__O
i think i'm gonna wait for jerry springer.
... if i can stay awake that long o__o
i'll edit this post with whatever goes on for the rest of the day

//edit1
it's 12:12. i still haven't slept.
i think i'm going out to watch a movie with my cousin and his girlfriend and my sister.
i'm not tired yet. LOL. wao. i have a can of NOS just incase. ya k bye. edit again later.

//edit2
so i didn't go out to watch a movie. what i did do is...
go to sleep. and i woke up right now and it's 8:39.
oh well. sisters not home yet. soooo, idk what to do.
i miss my girlfrann. she's out eating i guess.
i think i'm gonna clean my room a little. i dont have any drive though because stacy's not mad at me for having a messy room. i miss stacy :(

//edit3
it's 12:45
i'm not talking to anyone.
i haven't talked to tia all day. she's on omgpop right now.
i don't want to talk to her js becaause of last time >_>
oh well.

~ luscious lapena

i haven't gone bowling yet.

i'm pretty angry.

~mashed potatoes michael LOL

i don't matter to anyone.

not even a little.

i love my girlfriend pt. 3

yes part three.
because this morning... we roleplayed as characters in ni hao kai-lan, ruby&max, and agent oso. and also spelling lyk dis js bcuz we lame lyk daaat.
AND watching zoo animal cams LOL.
FUNFUNFUN. we2coote :D

i have not slept yet.
and i don't plan to anytime soon.
LOL oh god. i'm skipping practice again. this is bad.

~macaroni michael

again.

barely talked to anyone today. tia toooo.
i texted her for a little bit. she stopped right now.
idk whats up. i think it's just me.
maybe i just miss her. it's been a little over a week.
this usually happens if i don't see her for past a week.
i don't even know the next time i'll see her ;o.
anyways, what about everyone else?
i have no idea. okay yeah, i don't know. im done.

evo 09 sfiv finals live right now.
http://evo2k.com/live/

~michael

i feel

alone. i haven't talked to anyone today. and i feel like i haven't talked to tia this whole week. again. no one texts me back. make michael feel like shit saturday im guessing. im done. im pretty angry and sad.

~malicious michael

10:09am

i haven't slept yet. not really. i fell asleep at 3am waiting for tia to text me back. got awoken up by her saying goodnight. fell back asleep. woke up again cause it was too hot. it was 4am. all in one hour, i woke up and fell back asleep twice. i couldn't go back to sleep after that so i just layed there.

630am. i knew it was showing ni hao kai-lan, so i watched it like the little kid that i am :). kai-lan's a little cutie ^__^ i was playing rhythm heaven too. kristine walked in my door at like the end of ni hao kai lan. so i went into her room so that my parents wouldn't think that i stayed up all night.

it's 10:23 (irony) right now. and i'm being a no-lifer playing on omgpop. i think i should text tia good morning, then again, i don't wanna wake her. i'll just wait for her to text me. i should get ready soon cause my cousin is picking me and kristine up to go to the oc fair. i'm going to die today. goodbye world.

~ maple michael

band

i dont know. i don't really have the passion for it anymore. it's just really boring. i don't know whether its because i went back to trumpet(not that trumpets are boring. i just don't talk to anyone much in the section), or i just been doing it for awhile now. then again, i'd be even more sick of it if i was still on cymbals. but there's always yeong to push me. im not really close to anyone in the trumpet section. i've known josh forever, but he's not really talkative. sharon & chriscelle are cool. i wish i talked to them more.
anyways, practice today was alright. i need to memorize my music. soon. and my warmups too because i do not know any of them at all.

hi guys. my girlfriends a bitch.

but i still love her cause a bitch is a mans bestfriend LOL :D
IMJUSTKIDDINGILOVEYOU <3.

~mister michael miyagi

im sick

i've been sick for a week. and i hate it. ever since i got sick, i've been feeling very pessimistic.
why the hell do we even get sick? getting sick isn't going to make our lives any better and it's not going to teach me any lessons in life either other than to put a jacket on when its cold, and stop eating/drinking cold things when you are sick.
and then there's medicine. why the hell does this stuff taste like shit? if you're going to make something liquid for someone to drink to help their coughs/runny nose/sore throat, at least make it taste good so i dont have to have the fucking feeling that i have to throw up and have to take more because if fucking threw up what i just drank. dumb shits.
and some other thoughts: then you get everyone else around you sick, you have to skip school/class/work, you have to stay in bed all day.
why the hell do we even get sick? that's the question of the day.

sorry. im just angry.

my girlfriend isn't awake, so i am just
~michael.

so what's this mean?

apparently, my girlfriend isn't coming to rowland anymore.
is that telling me that this isn't going to work out?
or does it just mean that we're going to have to work just a little bit more to make it work out?
whichever one it is, i'll still love her js as much as i do now. if not even more.
s'been more than a year since i had a girlfriend, and i'm loving this feeling that she gives me. with that, she's sister/bffl approved and so am i, so i dont know what else could go wrong. and she's proud to talk to me to her family too. i like that.

anyways, today. yesterday. whatever the hell you want to call it.
mom bitched at me at 4am because i was still awake. i went to lay down. i layed there pretty much until like 730 because i couldn't sleep whatsoever. kristine woke me up at 10. i fell back asleep for a little, then she woke me up again and i called tia. someone remind me to stay on the phone with her after waaking her up :P. went to cook two hot pockets. then my dad started cooking fried rice. he told us to come get some. i told him i was already eating hot pockets. "NO, you're coughing a lot. you have to eat this". i was just like wtf. can you not see that i'm eating already?! whatever. i didn't eat it anyways. i just put it back in the pan after i was done eating my hot pockets. took a shower. left to diamond.
got to diamond. stupid scrub was playing sf4, and i couldn't beat him. just because i wasn't properly warmed up. or maybe not even that, its just i haven't played in a while. or i was just playing stupid and not smart. oh well. then i played wangan for a little. friends came. girlfriend came.

offtopic: i just scratched my armpits, and i smelled it. my deodorant smells really good

back on topic: i went with tia and kristine to have their little jam session thing. i wanted to keep the liveliness up by yelling and being obnoxious and what not. went back to get ron. went to genki. went to cue. kristine was thirsty so we went to get shit at the boat(hi april. you're still paying when you take me to eat out :D loves.). kristine got mad because it was too late to get pho with the family. i dont know why. we're gonna go later. sat back down at the little benches thing or whatever. i saw angela through the window. and then i saw the girl in front of her. i didn't know whether that was joy or not. so i texted her. i sounded like a stalker LOL. i went to go say hi, and i brought her back to meet tia. talked for a little bit. then said bye. love that bitch. i think i bothered tia telling her that i used to like her LOL :(. then just a bunch of quiet&thinkingg&thumbwars.
s'okay.

~manta ray michael

i love my girlfriend pt. 2

hi. meet my girlfriend tia barrera. wanna know how we met and how we got here? i bet you do. it's a long story. if you have the time, i'm willing to tell you :)

-no names mentioned except for tia's-

ksolike, first time i saw tia was my last few weeks in rincon when she was trying out for drumline. after that, i never really heard of anything about her again. then the beginning of this school year, i had met a few girls. one happened to fall for me. my friend fell for one of them (sup dick sucker). he added a girl thinking it was her, but it ended up being tia. they got close. one day, tia randomly added me. i talked to her once. maybe twice. then there was the ayala show. i got off the bus, and i saw her. "fuck is that cutie walking over here?". me with my blind eyes. we said our hi's. later on that night, she came to talk to her friend. i hugged tia, and told her that she was the cutest thing in the world, and that her friend is ugly. they left. i went the other way thinking "hmm...". guess what i went home and thought about. later on, i went to go see fast and furious with my cousins. kristine&i ran into tia. but she was leaving already "damnit!". my sister and tia talk a lot at the time. a few nights after that, my sister was talking to tia, and kristine left to go play piano for a little. a text came in on my sisters phone. i asked if she wanted me to read it to her. she said no, but i read it anyways. "i think i kind of like your brother ;x". knowing that, i went straight for it. a few weeks later, my sister went to cue with tia. after tia left, kristine got a text from tia saying "i don't think i'll ever have the guts to tell him >>. and i just passed by the doggy cage]:". harhar. a few days after that, i saw one of my friends at school who is close to tia. "ey dog, come on! help me out!" "what!? you like her?!" "yeah!" "want me to tell her?" "yeah". i let her know that night what was up. nearly a month after that, on may23rd, i asked her out :).

now we're here. one month of being together and still going on strong. i wouldn't want to be with anyone else. and i wouldn't mind being with the for the rest of forever either. along with that, my sister even wants me to marry her. she's different than my past girlfriends. we're also almost the same. if you wanted to find the biggest difference, it's probably that i'm a boy, and she's a girl LOL. her family likes me. kristine likes her. things are good. i love it. sorry ladies, i'll be here for a while :).

~ menstrual cycle michael

i love my girlfriend

yes i dooooo! :)
i told her i was gna blog about her.
but i'm lazy. LOL. i'll do it later.

~ meatball michael
sup beb LOL :)

03:48am

it's not my week.
not really.

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."