i wish...

winter break would come already. thanks to the new principal for adding the nutrition. i feel like school goes by faster now.

band had 5-9 rehearsal monday, wednesday, AND saturday. we'd be that much better.

i had someone to play bop it with.

that i weren't so skinny.

someone would take me out to the movies. apparently, i'm not going to see orphan or paper heart anytime soon anymore.

I HAD DARK PURPLE CHUCKS BECAUSE I'VE BEEN WANTING A PAIR SINCE FOREVER :[

i could drive already.

stacy's letter came in the mail already

my laptop wouldn't be acting so stupid.

my dad wouldn't get mad at everything that my sister and i do.

my eyes weren't so bad.

for football games to start already

that our first show wasn't on a wednesday

i could sing. because i can't

that she'd just stop looking at me and say hi!

school weren't so hard.

that it weren't so hot. i've only worn undershirts for the past two weeks of school because i didn't wanna wear too many layers

i could start wearing jackets again

for tia's happiness. because she deserves it, and i just want her to go back to loving life again.

and i wish someone would buy me this (http://katyperry.shop.bravadousa.com/Product.aspx?cp=14398_14829&pc=BGCTKP07) in small. LOL

tia dina barrera,

i miss you.
so much.
<3.

I UNDERSTAND NOW.
&i'm sorry.

anyways. i'm waiting for stacys letter to come in the mail.
<3

she doesn't want to fight for this...
at least... that's how i see it after reading her most recent blog.
is that the truth? is this the end?
where will i go? what am i going to do?
i dont want to be lied to. again.

trying

to smile.
stop crying.
she's still here. &im still hers. at least that's what i hope so.
i'll still be here whenever she's ready. i dont care how long it takes.
if it ends up falling apart... i promise you i'll always be your wiener dog.
but i know you'll pull through. i've said this maybe 12837148 times already.
but i know you will. i know it. do this for me please. again, i love you babe.

So baby don't worry
You are my only
You won't be lonely
Even if the sky is falling down
You'll be my only, no need to worry

someone help me stop...

please.

i hope when you do come back, everything will be back the way it was.
not only that, but hopefully we'll be even stronger than we are now.
don't let this end the way with what's going on right now.
i still have faith in you. i still have hope in you. i still believe in you.
i know you'll pull through. for yourself. for me. for us. js try.
i love you.

when people say they'll try, they don't.
it's happened to me three times already.
they just say they're going to try, and then they just go through their lives not giving a shit anymore, and just going through the fucking motions.
and when they do try, it just all falls apart at the end.
i'm hoping not to have either of those happen this time.
i'll wait. i'll be patient. i'll still love you.
i just don't want to wait too long :/
EDIT: no... i'll wait as long as it takes. i won't let this fire between us die down. if this is real, i know she'll come back eventually, no matter how long it'll take her to get herself settled.

i hope you're all ready to see a very very angry, anal, ignorant michael lapena.

"you look troubled!"

"... i am."

school.

so far, school has been a pain in the ass.
1. i'm only taking 6 classes. i dont know if i wanna get into another class because i like getting out earlier, but i really want my credits. and if i do get into another class, i dont know what it'll be. med core is closed still i think. if i take wind ensemble again, it'll be an easy class because alvo is too lazy to do anything with us, and that'll be easy credits. i just don't know how getting another class will change my schedule, cause i don't want to leave novita in english :(
2. all of my classes are boring. no one i know is in my classes except for history and spanish, but still. it's hard to make them fun.
3. i never really noticed until today &i know it's only the second day of school, but my friend in chemistry earlier told me that i look sad. &i guess that's kind of true. she asked me if i missed my girlfriend, and i replied "yeah. a lot". since my classes are so boring, there's nothing to keep me occupied, and i'm usually just thinking about my girlfriend all day in all of my classes. in the last two weeks, we both have been through band camp. me, at rowland. her, at nogales. in the last two weeks, i feel like we've drifted apart from each other. sometimes she doesn't even text me in the morning anymore. sometimes she doesn't text me back at all. sometimes i don't think she cares anymore. but i know she does. i know she's busy. i'm busy too. but having conflicting practice schedules... it's hard to talk to her during the day/night, and all i really want is just acknowledgment. sometimes i wonder what goes on through her head when i'm at practice. does she think about me? i wonder what goes on through her head when i'm with her. is she happy? well, i js wna stay strong. anyways... yeah. hi tia if you're reading this. i love you.

well... after writing that, i don't know what else to write :/
point: i hate school so far. it's boring. and i miss my girlfriend. a lot. a lot.

its over.

goodbye to summer 09'
last day of summer coulda been better. i wish.
went out to eat for my aunts birthday.
i haven't talked to tia all day. i hope she is having/had fun at warped.
&it was our 4months today :). i love her verrry much <3
school tomorrow. and the first 5-9 practice. i hope everything goes well tomorrow.

almost over

band camp is almost over. thank god. i've been wanting to get out of this shit ever since it started. tomorrow is the last day, then friday is the trumpet sectional[maybe] &the parent review! andand, i've been wanting to see my girlfriend the past two weeks. it's been hard to talk to her because of our conflicting schedules. but this weekend, i'm finaally going to get to see her, so i'm happy :) i'm hoping things go back to normal for us once band camp is over and once school starts.

anyways, regiment is doing well. i wish there was more discipline though, so that freshman & other people wouldn't fuck around so much. i want the regiment to be good. i want the regiment to get better. i hope the season goes well this year. i'm really feeling good about this year. i hope next year, also my last year, will be even better. too bad we don't march wba yet :( i've been wanting to march wba since freshman year. ooh well, hope to see rowland make it up there after i leave.

and, i hope school going to good. my schedule is missing one of my classes. i don't know what i'm gonna do if i don't get the class on the official schedule on the first day of school. i'm probably going to have to take another wind ensemble class again, which i dont want to do[even though it'll probably a chill out class], because i don't want to spend another hour practicing music / marching. &if i dont get that class i want, then i don't know what i'm going to take my senior year :( we'll see how everything goes.

anyways, today... it went... okay. just practice music the first three hours. then break. i got to see athena :) she thinks i'm talking more now hehe. i hope i can do that with other peoples. she's so fun :D it's her birthday on friday guys. she's having a big party at her house. everyones invited. HAHA. yeah, then last half of camp was just cleaning up the part of the show we already learned. i want to finish the first mvt already :(. i don't think we'll finish it until school starts. i wish we finished it before camp ends just like last year. oh well.

i'm done.
i'm excited. i can't wait to see my girlfriend this saturday :D
knowing that is helping me get through the rest of this week.

i give up

trying so hard to talk to her whenever she's out.
because she eventually stops talking to me anyways.
when im with her, i feel like she checks her phone every five minutes, and she's anxious to get out of whatever we're doing.
when she's with other people, it's like she doesn't even care that im trying to talk to her.
whatever. i give up. if she wants to talk to me, she'll talk to me... right?
i'm sorry. this is just hard for me after this week.

... happy2sad.

if i do not see tia barrera before school starts,
i will become one very sad and angry person.
& you really don't want to see that.
that's a promise.

i let my emotions get to me this week.
i told myself to try and not to, but i guess i did.
not being able to talk to her all day saddens me. the only time we talk is during break and at night when we come home. on top of that we don't even talk that much when we DO talk. i've tried phone calls, but i'm not any good at those.
&on break today, it didn't feel like she wanted to talk to me, even though she said she did. i only try to talk to her because i want us to stay strong. but i can't do that if she's not going to cooperate.
i thought i'd be able to see her this saturday, but i guess not. my only hope to get all of this stress off of me. i wonder what week two will be like.
i just want us to be strong.
writing this blog makes me feel even clingier, so i'll just stop.

... i love you.

my only hope to relieve stress this weekend is gone :(

this is so hard for me]:

summers over for me. not really happy about it because i have to be at school for the next two weeks. so pretty much school has already started for me.
anyways, this summer, i haven't really done anything. but i'm still happy about what went on this summer. i've stayed up with my girlfriend almost every night, i've seen her probably every other week since summer started, i've seen my favorite apol :D, i've gone to the beach. i've done a lot of things. i think i got over my wangan addiction this summer too.
but now, i have band camp and link crew. i could honestly care less about link crew now after the last meeting. i don't even have any freshmen. i have to pick them out the day of freshman orientation. i dont even know my partner. im planning just to make up some lame ass excuse just not to go. but then again, i don't want to disappoint my partner, and i payed $15 dollars for membership fee, and the #1 reason why i want to stay... is because of lei. she was there for me when i was a freshman, i wanna be there for other freshmen too.
well... now, i'm just prioritizing tia and band. especiallly tia because i'm not going to be able to talk to her much in the next two weeks, but we'll still be seeing each other this weekend hopefully. im js hoping it doesn't become weird between us :(. she's made this whole summer bearable. and i thank you, tia, for that. love you :)

goodbye to summer of 09.
i'm going to go back to reminiscing.

cheating

my cousin brought up my girlfriend in the car earlier. he asked if we were serious. i said, "yeah. well at least i am. i dont know about her".
then he brought up about how he got cheated on by his last girlfriend. which totally put the thought into my mind... "what if tia did/is/will... ?" &&what if she's js using me.
not saying that she did/is/will, and im not saying that she's probably using me. js you know. the thought of what if scares me.
not that i don't trust her, because i do. it's just im scared of losing her.

tia disappeared tonight ]:

fact: i'm better than tia at mariokart

michael-2 tia-1 ties-8

:D

im eating cheetoes fries.
that's all i have to say.
no wait, i just put on my favorite chapstick.
i still have the taste of tia on me. LOL :x
okay im done.
NO WAIT
im gna download mario kart. even though i have the real thing.
but i'm not going to carry it around with me and switch the R4 just for mario kart -__-
okay im done.
i'm serious this time.
PROMISE. -pinkytouchthumbkiss!-
LOL :D
NO WAIT :[ ONE MORE PLEASE :[:[:[
so, i realized katy perry's posts more facebook now
i'm just going to comment the link to my hot&cold video to her now so a bunch of people will see it. LOL hopefully.
OKAY IM DONE. PROMISE.

~michael the massager.

if anything changes. i'll delete this blog.


//edit.
... i can't delete this blog.
fact is, i still am disappointed
going through the trouble of trying to wake you up for four hours. and having to go out late. you said you wanted more time with me.
being left alone because you have plans to go somewhere else.
asking you everyday if you'd be able to go out on saturday.
then you ask me if i wanted to hang out on saturday. i ask you what about drumline? and you say that you'd rather be with me than with them.
i thought you'd keep your word.
i haven't seen you for three weeks. all i get is two hours.
&you see drumline a lot more than you see me.
THAT is what bothered me the most after you left.
schools starting soon. time to be with you is running out.

i just looked at the band schedule.
and im pretty scared.
no shows until october, but still...
am i going to have time for anything?
school? im probably going to be struggling in my classes if i can't get any work done.
what about tia? will i have time for her? that's what scares me the most :(

meg&dia - fighting for nothing

//edit.
just go...

it's like almost 930. im hungry.
my sister left with my cousins to mt. baldy to go hiking.
i didn't go cause i knew i'd be staying up with tia all night.
of course, doing something weird that we always do every night.
she asked me to wake her up at 1230. im kinda tired.
not tired enough to sleep though.
... or maybe too tired to sleep.
im staying up for her. rawr.
k, moms buying me mcdonalds.

~marvelous michael

this week

is like "you don't get to talk to your girlfriend" week.
i wonder what's going to happen in the two weeks of band camp.
that's like no talking to her at all :(
... what am i gna do.

its been two weeks. i think im going crazy :/

i've been thinking a lot lately...
especially after my dreams last night.

i just realized today is the 24th...
link crew training is the 5th and 6th of august...
i haven't gotten an email about anything...
mrs. wellmeyer's and ms. tan's websites don't say anything...
WTF.
august is going to be hell.
i'm going to sleep now.
well after i watch ni hao kai lan [:
THEN i am going to sleep.
because it's like 6;49am

//edit
wow. i just checked my email right now.
and mrs. wellmeyer emailed me.
how funny i posted this last night, and she emailed me today.

~ McMichael

why do i feel like somethings wrong

2 months

yes. today is two months of tia&i being together! :)
... i'm not going to see her today though. and i'm probably barely going to talk to her cause she has drumline practice later on today. :( it's all good though.
this has been the smoothest two months ever. i've never had it so easy in two months while in a relationship withOUT any kind of bullshit, because that's all what my past relationships have been.
im excited to see whats up for us in the future cause i love this girl to deathzzzzz.
<3 ^__^ :D

---

hi, i miss you.

---

anyways. i haven't slept yet. yes, i haven't slept yet.
i've eaten two breakfasts already and i drank six glasses of water.
or maybe i had three breakfasts? i cooked two omeletes, and then an hour later, i cooked a pizza. LOL. im a fatass :).
shit, i'm not even that tired. i'm probably going to take a nap later while tia's at practice.

i don't know what i'm gonna do now. o__O
i think i'm gonna wait for jerry springer.
... if i can stay awake that long o__o
i'll edit this post with whatever goes on for the rest of the day

//edit1
it's 12:12. i still haven't slept.
i think i'm going out to watch a movie with my cousin and his girlfriend and my sister.
i'm not tired yet. LOL. wao. i have a can of NOS just incase. ya k bye. edit again later.

//edit2
so i didn't go out to watch a movie. what i did do is...
go to sleep. and i woke up right now and it's 8:39.
oh well. sisters not home yet. soooo, idk what to do.
i miss my girlfrann. she's out eating i guess.
i think i'm gonna clean my room a little. i dont have any drive though because stacy's not mad at me for having a messy room. i miss stacy :(

//edit3
it's 12:45
i'm not talking to anyone.
i haven't talked to tia all day. she's on omgpop right now.
i don't want to talk to her js becaause of last time >_>
oh well.

~ luscious lapena

i haven't gone bowling yet.

i'm pretty angry.

~mashed potatoes michael LOL

i don't matter to anyone.

not even a little.

i love my girlfriend pt. 3

yes part three.
because this morning... we roleplayed as characters in ni hao kai-lan, ruby&max, and agent oso. and also spelling lyk dis js bcuz we lame lyk daaat.
AND watching zoo animal cams LOL.
FUNFUNFUN. we2coote :D

i have not slept yet.
and i don't plan to anytime soon.
LOL oh god. i'm skipping practice again. this is bad.

~macaroni michael

again.

barely talked to anyone today. tia toooo.
i texted her for a little bit. she stopped right now.
idk whats up. i think it's just me.
maybe i just miss her. it's been a little over a week.
this usually happens if i don't see her for past a week.
i don't even know the next time i'll see her ;o.
anyways, what about everyone else?
i have no idea. okay yeah, i don't know. im done.

evo 09 sfiv finals live right now.
http://evo2k.com/live/

~michael

i feel

alone. i haven't talked to anyone today. and i feel like i haven't talked to tia this whole week. again. no one texts me back. make michael feel like shit saturday im guessing. im done. im pretty angry and sad.

~malicious michael

10:09am

i haven't slept yet. not really. i fell asleep at 3am waiting for tia to text me back. got awoken up by her saying goodnight. fell back asleep. woke up again cause it was too hot. it was 4am. all in one hour, i woke up and fell back asleep twice. i couldn't go back to sleep after that so i just layed there.

630am. i knew it was showing ni hao kai-lan, so i watched it like the little kid that i am :). kai-lan's a little cutie ^__^ i was playing rhythm heaven too. kristine walked in my door at like the end of ni hao kai lan. so i went into her room so that my parents wouldn't think that i stayed up all night.

it's 10:23 (irony) right now. and i'm being a no-lifer playing on omgpop. i think i should text tia good morning, then again, i don't wanna wake her. i'll just wait for her to text me. i should get ready soon cause my cousin is picking me and kristine up to go to the oc fair. i'm going to die today. goodbye world.

~ maple michael

band

i dont know. i don't really have the passion for it anymore. it's just really boring. i don't know whether its because i went back to trumpet(not that trumpets are boring. i just don't talk to anyone much in the section), or i just been doing it for awhile now. then again, i'd be even more sick of it if i was still on cymbals. but there's always yeong to push me. im not really close to anyone in the trumpet section. i've known josh forever, but he's not really talkative. sharon & chriscelle are cool. i wish i talked to them more.
anyways, practice today was alright. i need to memorize my music. soon. and my warmups too because i do not know any of them at all.

hi guys. my girlfriends a bitch.

but i still love her cause a bitch is a mans bestfriend LOL :D
IMJUSTKIDDINGILOVEYOU <3.

~mister michael miyagi

im sick

i've been sick for a week. and i hate it. ever since i got sick, i've been feeling very pessimistic.
why the hell do we even get sick? getting sick isn't going to make our lives any better and it's not going to teach me any lessons in life either other than to put a jacket on when its cold, and stop eating/drinking cold things when you are sick.
and then there's medicine. why the hell does this stuff taste like shit? if you're going to make something liquid for someone to drink to help their coughs/runny nose/sore throat, at least make it taste good so i dont have to have the fucking feeling that i have to throw up and have to take more because if fucking threw up what i just drank. dumb shits.
and some other thoughts: then you get everyone else around you sick, you have to skip school/class/work, you have to stay in bed all day.
why the hell do we even get sick? that's the question of the day.

sorry. im just angry.

my girlfriend isn't awake, so i am just
~michael.

so what's this mean?

apparently, my girlfriend isn't coming to rowland anymore.
is that telling me that this isn't going to work out?
or does it just mean that we're going to have to work just a little bit more to make it work out?
whichever one it is, i'll still love her js as much as i do now. if not even more.
s'been more than a year since i had a girlfriend, and i'm loving this feeling that she gives me. with that, she's sister/bffl approved and so am i, so i dont know what else could go wrong. and she's proud to talk to me to her family too. i like that.

anyways, today. yesterday. whatever the hell you want to call it.
mom bitched at me at 4am because i was still awake. i went to lay down. i layed there pretty much until like 730 because i couldn't sleep whatsoever. kristine woke me up at 10. i fell back asleep for a little, then she woke me up again and i called tia. someone remind me to stay on the phone with her after waaking her up :P. went to cook two hot pockets. then my dad started cooking fried rice. he told us to come get some. i told him i was already eating hot pockets. "NO, you're coughing a lot. you have to eat this". i was just like wtf. can you not see that i'm eating already?! whatever. i didn't eat it anyways. i just put it back in the pan after i was done eating my hot pockets. took a shower. left to diamond.
got to diamond. stupid scrub was playing sf4, and i couldn't beat him. just because i wasn't properly warmed up. or maybe not even that, its just i haven't played in a while. or i was just playing stupid and not smart. oh well. then i played wangan for a little. friends came. girlfriend came.

offtopic: i just scratched my armpits, and i smelled it. my deodorant smells really good

back on topic: i went with tia and kristine to have their little jam session thing. i wanted to keep the liveliness up by yelling and being obnoxious and what not. went back to get ron. went to genki. went to cue. kristine was thirsty so we went to get shit at the boat(hi april. you're still paying when you take me to eat out :D loves.). kristine got mad because it was too late to get pho with the family. i dont know why. we're gonna go later. sat back down at the little benches thing or whatever. i saw angela through the window. and then i saw the girl in front of her. i didn't know whether that was joy or not. so i texted her. i sounded like a stalker LOL. i went to go say hi, and i brought her back to meet tia. talked for a little bit. then said bye. love that bitch. i think i bothered tia telling her that i used to like her LOL :(. then just a bunch of quiet&thinkingg&thumbwars.
s'okay.

~manta ray michael

i love my girlfriend pt. 2

hi. meet my girlfriend tia barrera. wanna know how we met and how we got here? i bet you do. it's a long story. if you have the time, i'm willing to tell you :)

-no names mentioned except for tia's-

ksolike, first time i saw tia was my last few weeks in rincon when she was trying out for drumline. after that, i never really heard of anything about her again. then the beginning of this school year, i had met a few girls. one happened to fall for me. my friend fell for one of them (sup dick sucker). he added a girl thinking it was her, but it ended up being tia. they got close. one day, tia randomly added me. i talked to her once. maybe twice. then there was the ayala show. i got off the bus, and i saw her. "fuck is that cutie walking over here?". me with my blind eyes. we said our hi's. later on that night, she came to talk to her friend. i hugged tia, and told her that she was the cutest thing in the world, and that her friend is ugly. they left. i went the other way thinking "hmm...". guess what i went home and thought about. later on, i went to go see fast and furious with my cousins. kristine&i ran into tia. but she was leaving already "damnit!". my sister and tia talk a lot at the time. a few nights after that, my sister was talking to tia, and kristine left to go play piano for a little. a text came in on my sisters phone. i asked if she wanted me to read it to her. she said no, but i read it anyways. "i think i kind of like your brother ;x". knowing that, i went straight for it. a few weeks later, my sister went to cue with tia. after tia left, kristine got a text from tia saying "i don't think i'll ever have the guts to tell him >>. and i just passed by the doggy cage]:". harhar. a few days after that, i saw one of my friends at school who is close to tia. "ey dog, come on! help me out!" "what!? you like her?!" "yeah!" "want me to tell her?" "yeah". i let her know that night what was up. nearly a month after that, on may23rd, i asked her out :).

now we're here. one month of being together and still going on strong. i wouldn't want to be with anyone else. and i wouldn't mind being with the for the rest of forever either. along with that, my sister even wants me to marry her. she's different than my past girlfriends. we're also almost the same. if you wanted to find the biggest difference, it's probably that i'm a boy, and she's a girl LOL. her family likes me. kristine likes her. things are good. i love it. sorry ladies, i'll be here for a while :).

~ menstrual cycle michael

i love my girlfriend

yes i dooooo! :)
i told her i was gna blog about her.
but i'm lazy. LOL. i'll do it later.

~ meatball michael
sup beb LOL :)

03:48am

it's not my week.
not really.

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."

11:42pm

sup.
i realized earlier i haven't talked to tia today. not a lot. twice i tried texting her. she'd stop texting back in the middle. oh well >_>.
i remember two years ago, april&i were sitting on the planter waiting for her mom to pick us up. she told me i'd end up like -enter name here- and i'd be a junior hittting on freshman. i said i wouldn't. guess what? i'm a junior and my girlfriend is a freshman. haha haha ]: that doesn't mean im going to leave her though [: fuck you april ]:
i feel like i'm putting a lot of stress on myself. i got a text from someone earlier(probably someone from trumpet section) saying i have practice tomorrow from 1pm-330pm. i have practice every monday and wednesday now. i also have to memorize show music. and i need to do it soon because i'm going to have a hard time marching and playing if i don't even know what to play. i dont want to just march the show. i have to do all my permit shit this summer. i started DE last night, it's boring. i don't like reading. "yknow, if you put your goals in front of you, reading is easy." i'll try that. and on top of that, there's tia, my girlfriend. it doesn't sound like a lot. but i dunno, i'm really stressing over it. maybe i'm thinking about it too much.

~macaroni michael

04:33am

yeah, anyways. i was talking to tia. 'till she fell asleep. or is just ignoring me cause im boring.
and i realized again that i have no social skills. i cant keep a conversation going, nor can i keep up in one. whether its my girlfriend, exgirlfriend, family, whoevers. and i feel bad. every. single. time. they wanna talk to me, but then i act like i'm "not interested". i am interested. but, i dont know. i dont know what to say.

my girlfriend? yeah, i love her. i really do, and i want this to last for a while, but i dont know. how can i do that, and i can't even talk? and i dont know. some times i get those big feelings that she doesn't want to talk to me. either that, or she's bored out of her mind. tia, i know you say you don't care and don't feel bad. but i do care, and i do feel bad. it's been a whole year since i've felt like this way about someone, and i can't even show it. but i do love you. and you know that. i'm sorry.
my exgirlfriend? yeah, she even told me earlier that im too quiet. even when we were back together. she told me i act like im not interested in conversations. i even complained that she wasn't talking enough. no, guess who's fault that was? mine i'm sorry.
my family? everytime i hang out with my cousins, i'm always scared to ride in the car with them. they try to talk to me so much, but i have no words. i'm sorry.

i try. every fucking single day. i try.
this was a new years resolution. and i have failed.
okay, i just wanted to vent because tia fell asleep again. and yeah.
why is it i feel like crying now:(

~miracle michael.

12:24am

sup world. or just matt because the only one following me. sup matt. LOL.
woke up at like what. nine yesterday? fell back asleep, and woke up again at eleven to my mom yelling at me to go eat. but i fell back asleep until one i think. then i got a text from my girlfriend asking me what i was doing, and that she'd be at diamond plaza with her friend. i thought about it.

-passing-

went to go eat. i barely ate >>" i haven't been eating regularly ever since summer started/school ended. i'm probably going to lose more weight if i keep doing this. my girlfriend weighs more than me :(. oh well. then i went to shower.

-passing-

mom left to sams club and the mall at like 3. sister stayed home with me because she had to go grocery shopping for the beach later with cousins and everything. i was singing and she fell asleep LOL. then my mom came back. and then my cousin came to pick up kristine and they left. and my mom left again to go buy stuff to give my cousin for the beach. and i didn't wanna be home alone, so i went to go see my girlfriend at diamond plaza.

-passing-

got to diamond. went straight to infinity just to see what was up. fat mexican guy playing c.viper. hella hot viper. starslayer was there. she's really pretty in person. hehe hehe. went to boat and found tia and justine. watched tv mostly lols. thumb wars with bebs hehe :] she switched my hairtie with hers o_O. justine left to go talk on the phone. i got stuck with tia lol. i didn't talk a lot. like always. i felt bad :(. what's wrong with meeeeeeee?! meh. anyways, then they left. i met tia's mom hehe!

-passing-

met up with yeong and eric. play left 4 dead at egames for like an hour. yeong and erics computers kept fucking up so we had to keep moving around. finally got everything to work. played blood harvest as zoey. always gotta be zoey ;). got up to like chapter 3 and time was up. yeong dropped me off home.

~ magical michael

05:34am

it's 05;34 am right now. why am i still up? i honestly have no idea.
and i have to wake up early. holy shit. maybe i should sleep soon.
cause i mean, i'm not even doing anything. except maybe that i'm
playing with the celebrity collage on myheritage, but that's it.
and my girlfriend is asleep, so i'm not talking to anyone.
i just realized i haven't really talked to her earlier or yesterday. wao.
i already worked out earlier, so that's out of the way.
my arm grew 100 times bigger after working out two days ago lols. weird.
but they are playing michael jackson videos on aMTV. i was kind of
sad when i heard he died. i really wanted to meet him. RIP MJ. you did well.
yknow, i haven't really heard chris tucker say anything about MJ. he looked up to him. hm.
oh well. im gonna go get me some tampico, get in bed, and play rhythm heaven.
or something. or cooking mama. or finish pokemon. or study for permit shit.

~mustang michael