oh you know...

i let my emotions get to me this week.
i told myself to try and not to, but i guess i did.
not being able to talk to her all day saddens me. the only time we talk is during break and at night when we come home. on top of that we don't even talk that much when we DO talk. i've tried phone calls, but i'm not any good at those.
&on break today, it didn't feel like she wanted to talk to me, even though she said she did. i only try to talk to her because i want us to stay strong. but i can't do that if she's not going to cooperate.
i thought i'd be able to see her this saturday, but i guess not. my only hope to get all of this stress off of me. i wonder what week two will be like.
i just want us to be strong.
writing this blog makes me feel even clingier, so i'll just stop.

... i love you.