school.

so far, school has been a pain in the ass.
1. i'm only taking 6 classes. i dont know if i wanna get into another class because i like getting out earlier, but i really want my credits. and if i do get into another class, i dont know what it'll be. med core is closed still i think. if i take wind ensemble again, it'll be an easy class because alvo is too lazy to do anything with us, and that'll be easy credits. i just don't know how getting another class will change my schedule, cause i don't want to leave novita in english :(
2. all of my classes are boring. no one i know is in my classes except for history and spanish, but still. it's hard to make them fun.
3. i never really noticed until today &i know it's only the second day of school, but my friend in chemistry earlier told me that i look sad. &i guess that's kind of true. she asked me if i missed my girlfriend, and i replied "yeah. a lot". since my classes are so boring, there's nothing to keep me occupied, and i'm usually just thinking about my girlfriend all day in all of my classes. in the last two weeks, we both have been through band camp. me, at rowland. her, at nogales. in the last two weeks, i feel like we've drifted apart from each other. sometimes she doesn't even text me in the morning anymore. sometimes she doesn't text me back at all. sometimes i don't think she cares anymore. but i know she does. i know she's busy. i'm busy too. but having conflicting practice schedules... it's hard to talk to her during the day/night, and all i really want is just acknowledgment. sometimes i wonder what goes on through her head when i'm at practice. does she think about me? i wonder what goes on through her head when i'm with her. is she happy? well, i js wna stay strong. anyways... yeah. hi tia if you're reading this. i love you.

well... after writing that, i don't know what else to write :/
point: i hate school so far. it's boring. and i miss my girlfriend. a lot. a lot.